Confessions of a DRAMA Queen

by Administrator on February 27, 2011


 

The other day, while on a prayer call, I heard a fellow minister share or acknowledge, “I realize I am a drama queen!!!” That stayed with me and became useful in my own reflections later that day. The first definition of drama is defined as, ” a composition in prose or verse presenting in dialog or pantomime a story involving conflict or contrast of character, esp. one intended to be acted on the stage; a play.” Another definition of drama is, “any situation or series of events having vivid, emotional, conflicting, or striking interest or results.” I know a lot of Drama Queens and Kings! You do, too!!  As I observed myself during that day, I realized I too am a Drama Queen! Confession is good for the soul. It’s a truth! My drama isn’t loud and confrontive however it’s highly internal and then builds into a big eruption. Co-covert as I may be, I am still in a dialog or story about what is going on that often involves contrast, vivid or striking interests and emotions of another character. Because most of my drama is internal, FIRST! I write the lines and anticipate the script of real life stories. What power! 
Confessional Chair by Arik Levy
It is worthwhile to acknowledge as our first lesson, how the confessions of others can set someone else free. The person who shared, did so from a place of ownership and responsibility. That’s a great place to start! Those things we hide, mask or justify have an incredible grip on us. It controls us, while we think that we are controlling other people, events and situations. Even deeper, what we are really trying to control is our is fear of being found out.  Nicole Daedone says, “Fearful women are NOT orgasmic.” Better still, is a deeper fear of no longer having “that story”! We would be left to be responsible for what is ours to own, even our pleasure. Oh MY! It could even mean that the meaning we’ve given it – may be false. (GULP!)

Roger Mastroianni picture @ Cleveland Play House

"Story-telling"

 
Stories create a groove in our mind, thoughts and words that become filters, habits and core beliefs. Sometimes the stories are inherited. Before we know it, we have a stage play or the ingredients of a Emmy-award winning series. The challenge is that these stories are often-fear based. Fear-based thoughts feed our will or starve it. When we over-eat a steady diet of worry, anxiety, judgment and powerlessness, then we put on the weight of burdensome stories. When we lack the nourishment of affirmative words or nurturing, inspired text, prayer, meditation and loving associations, we become fragile and weak. Either way, it’s frustrating. It is the difference between being “willing” and “willful”. Charles Fillmore says, ” Willfulness makes tenseness.  Persons who are contentious for their personal rights place themselves in bondage to material conditions and stop spiritual growth. The will is not to be broken, but disciplined.”
 
Discipline, what a concept! Fear-based drama will have you scattered energetically, all over the place. Louise Hay says, ” The subconscious mind does not have a sense of humor”.  That is to say, when we attach intense feeling to our habitual thoughts we are always choosing or creating, whether we know it or not.  Not to mention those of us who enjoy being “right”: Right about how rough it’s been, right about the pain someone caused, right about our innocence or just, right about the way we see things.  I ask, “Do we really want to right or do we want to be free?  Which is a love story, freedom or being right?”  Drama Queens/Kings need disciplined practice! If discipline is a bad word to your as it sometimes is to me then replace it with BLISS-cipline.  Since I am following my bliss on this journey, every choice, decision and practice serves my desire for more bliss.  I choose freedom whenever I can see my bondage.

Imagine if we got into the repetition that trains and feeds the will. Then, we could use our skill of drama to create, magnify and draw to us that elevated experience of peace, abundance , joy and over-joyed bliss. 

Your Stage, Your Creation

Rev. Dr. Iyanla Vanzant, my mentor, always tells us that “repetition is the mother of skill”. If we just practiced “the basics”, we could leverage our skills to write new screen plays in our life.  A play that we create the opening, creshendo and ending. We could use the vivid expression and contrast attached to empowering language to heal, love and lift those in the audience of our lives. Responsibility and ownership does not have to be held as a burden. It’s an opportunity. Drama doesn’t have to be held as “bad” or “tragic”. It can be however the climax (a high point) of a beautiful unfolding.  Each day, each moment, each second, we get to choose which role we will play; victim, villain, victor or vixen. We can be the life of a perpetual party, celebrating and embracing our unique ability to become the executive producer, actor/actress, creative director and writer of our own play.
 
Finally, rituals (tools) that discipline or pleasure filled BLISS-cipline us and builds the will with The Divine are:
1.) Rehearsals (practice “positive” pretending)
2.) Using your voice (speak aloud through prayer/affirmation)
3.) Edit with meditation & visualization (if you get it offtrack – realign yourself by omitting or adding)
4.) Score the sound-track (sing, dance, worship, play and praise)5.) Serve! (it’s not always about you)

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The Message of The WISHBONE

by Administrator on January 11, 2011


 

When I wrote this in October 2007, I only shared this creative burst with a small circle of friends that I believed wouldn’t judge me.  I couldn’t reconcile this ministry of pleasure, bliss and sensuality as being “acceptable” by the mainstream. In truth, I was still conforming and containing my own pleasure. This post is an activation my creativity, abundance and passion trusting The Universe to make room for my gifts. Gifts that I literally have been sitting on.   Today on 1/1/11 , I share my first blog post affirming that “I am safe to be and express a pleasure-filled blueprint as a healer, student and teacher.”  Are you sitting on your gifts?If you are a woman, I submit an EMPHACTIC, “YES”!!!!! You are sitting on your gift  and it is a part of both your physical and spiritual anatomy.

A couple of nights ago, I was watching a program called The Anatomy of Sex. I believe it was on Discovery Health. I learned something new and very useful. In fact, I learned something very spiritual. The clitoris is shaped like a WISHBONE. Many of us has been taught to think of “only” the small pearl shaped organ, covered by the hood. Nope, the nerve endings create the shape of a WISHBONE that create angelic waves of orgasmic pleasure beyond our vulvas! Think about that! Therefore, this organ is designed for pleasure at various points in the body. What “they” explained on this documentary is that vaginal orgasms are a myth. It’s really the clitoris being stimulated or rubbed at certain spots during intercourse that create various levels of orgasmic energy. However, I know and other experts will tell you that vaginal orgasms are NOT a myth at all. There are several seats of orgasmic release housed in this womb temple. We could really “go there” on those deeply, pleasurable, juicy releases and their messages. Okay, that’s not my point though!
 
Back to the wishbone!I was thinking about us as women and what we’ve been taught to believe or disbelieve about pleasure, being pleasing and/or the mask of pleasantries. While digesting the science pleasure,  it was evident of how dogma has conditioned many  through religion to be cut off from a full embrace of our sexuality, thus pleasure. When we study the history of cultures prior to Constantine, many communities were sexually free. To experience the Kundalini energy was a high spiritual experience. Today, it still is. Don’t you know oh so well that when we are in the throes of pleasure, we say, “Oh God!” or we simply breath deeply? It’s is called the HA breath. Well, the HA or Ah is the translation for the names of God.  Even when in the worship experience, HA-leiluiah is the highest praise. This sound can be found no matter the name we call God, Goddess, All that is. My point is this indeed is that sexual/sensual pleasure a high spiritual experience when held in higher esteem coupled with deliberate surrender. 
 
Back to the wishbone! Pleasure for a woman is her seat of power. It is her creative power. When we study The Law of Creation, appropriately named, there are some signals to our spiritual power. The Law of Creation is also known as The Law of Attraction, recently made famous by the movie The Secret. The Law of Creation (a/k/a attraction) simply says, “Whatever you put your attention on expands.” Yes, EXPANDS!!! What wishes would you like to expand? This one law became rather popular, although there several (7-9) core Universal Laws that all work together and can be found in the Esoteric teaching of Jesus. In other words, its supported by scripture. Therefore, those that “need” it now have permission to make room for pleasure. As a Metaphysican, I always love going into the deeper meaning, no pun intended here. Metaphysics is the term used to study that which is beyond the physical, beyond what we can touch, see, taste and feel. The Universal Laws are the non-physical principles that govern our Universe in an unfailing, impartial, consistent and dependable fashion.  I’ll have to get back to this, if you need me to.

 
Back to the wishbone! So, as we focus on our pleasure, allow pleasure and embrace pleasure in our lives we become more powerful to attract a/k/a create the lives we want. We become magnets for our manifestation. What if we taught women to be selective or celibate because of “this” truth and power rather than punishment, guilt and shame? What if we knew this was a seat of power and when we auction it off mindlessly, it depletes our ability to be attractive to the very desires we have. What if, we were taught to use our sexual pleasure to manifest and worship the Divinity within?  What if, we took our wish bone out of the mental and emotional prisons our core beliefs have created?  Whether single or married. . . . .What if, we knew that our pleasure is a ((((secret accelerator))))  or tool  to opening the gates  to usher us into manifesting our vision?

This is the power of The Goddess (God Is). This gift is a gateway. It is our portal to open the way to our desires. Which takes me back to The Law of Attraction:

Ester Hicks reminds us in her work to. . . .
1.)  Ask- This is a feminine demonstration of receptivity. So many of us have forgotten or never used the muscle of “asking” for anything. We are asking consciously or unconsciously all the time, anyway. Matthew 7:7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”

 2.) The Universe Answers – This part is not our job. This is where it may look like we need to “do” something. Control freaks may hve to find a new fetish. (LOL!!) In other words, this is were we must surrender and practice detachment from the outcome, while raising our expectation. We always get what we’ve asked for – conscious or unconscious also! Matthew 11:24 ” Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.” 

3.) Allow – This is our work to align with what we’ve asked for and our intern G.P.S. has answered. So, by the time that it manifest it’s only evidence of our alignment.  Did you get that? It is EVIDENCE of what is already ours.  Habakkuk 2:2-3 “Then the Lord answered me and said: “Write the vision And make it plain on tablets, That he may run who reads it. 3 For the vision is yet for an appointed time; But at the end it will speak, and it will not lie. Though it tarries, wait for it; Because it will surely come, It will not tarry.”

This is the breakdown for many of us, well at least it was for me for me. So, back to the wishbone! Living an orgasmic life and embracing our desire via pleasue creates a cycle, a wave or vibration. The pleasure (fun, creativity, play, flirting, receiving compliments, orgasm, fulfilment of purpose) supports us in the Allowing process. This is where the connection to setting the other laws in motion. . . .
 
~ The Law of Detachment (aka the Law of Allowing) says that in order to intentionally attract something, we must relinquish our attachment to it. This is the surrender! trust! During the orgasm process there is detachment from reality as endorphins are released for our good.
~  The Law of Unlimited Potential (aka the Law of Pure Potentiality) says that we are unlimited children of a very prosperous, powerful, omnipotent, impartial, all-providing, all-sufficient, all-loving Father/Mother/God.This is using our imagination (vision/meditation). We can have it before we have it.
~  The Law of Reciprocity (aka the Law of Giving) says that as you give you shall receive. Give and Forgive.
~  The Law of Cause and Effect: for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction. Reaping and Sowing in your own life.

So Ladies. . . .remember The Wishbone and it’s spiritual message. It blessed me and confirmed my own process of relaxing and following my bliss. I love you! Feel free to share you thoughts & comments. 
 
Before I salute you - Here are a few quotes, I pulled from my teachers to support my thinking aloud:
 
“As we study the laws that govern our Universe, we see certain empirical Truths. It is through the study of these Universal Principles and Truths that we master our creative abilities.  With study, we begin to comprehend the profound implications of each law; we become more and more conscious of the power of our intentionality and of our minds; more and more conscious of the unwavering influence of our thoughts, emotions and beliefs on our experience.”   (LOA Coach Anisa Aven)
 
“All is well. You did not come here to fix a broken world. The world is not broken. You came here to live a wonderful life. And if you can learn to relax a little and let it all in, you will begin to see the universe present you with all that you have asked for.” – Abraham
 
They say YOU create your own reality and the universe is simply reflecting back to you the essence of how you’re feeling about it!
Joseph Campbell said, “Follow your bliss.”
 
“Deep satisfaction, happiness, and that “glow” are yours for life – but only through your understanding, integration and mastery of The Womanly Arts. By helping you tap into the very center of your pleasure and helping you learn to speak the language of your desires, we will teach you how use the power of pleasure to have your way with the world. By fanning the flames of your desires, you open the door to pleasure and fun for everyone. Your desires spring forth, and your life changes; your life changes, and the world follows suit – this is the magnificence and power of a lit-up woman.” (Mama Gena – School for The Womanly Arts)

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